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'fAirytale Ending ?'Poster Print [summer 2023]

 

Diary Entry
August 7th 2023, 05:25am.

I awoke from internal dream/nightmare.

Essay in progress... I would love your input. Whoever you are. We are all involved. It affects us as all.

I like to think
Think about options
Think about intent
Think about consequences & outcomes
Think about story telling communication
Collect collate curate content for stories
To process and filter stories
I use in my creative life and output (art)
Etc!

Why am I finding it tricky in recent times to initiate decent deep discussions about the new era evolving and what is going on...? What has and is going on around us is mind boggling. I feel. But on the whole folks seem to avoid wanting to ponder the wider perspectives.... I would love your input.

I see others finding Ai fun... Even stating how Rewarding or stimulating it is to use...
I like different perspectives. I would love your input... Many themes entwine below to cover my last 13yrs thinking and research and living. :-)...

I have always been a late adopter...
It took me ten yrs to get a smart phone... Fundamentally it's a pocket super computer from science fiction fantasy....
Highly powerful communicator.

On the whole people found it odd or funny I still used a flip dumbphone still until 2018... Even when I showed them how I could use it with my eyes closed.... I chose to get a smartphone when I found myself needing to leave my family home. I felt I wanted to communicate to our children my desire to stay in touch and be contactable.... We could video call each other anytime. The smartphone arrived. Yes it opened my eyes... But to what exactly?

So
Serendipity and synchronicity are the things that I notice around me and they inspire me... I then harness, process and use the observations and my evaluations to create ideas, create work and communicate to my community . In my work, in my 'art', and in daily life.

Tonight I was having a nightmare....

I was drawn into a dodgy looking interior to follow those I know... Keep up with them on our journey that day.... Being polite to others inside, I was holding door open for people inside .. Once inside, some bad actors grappled my friends... Then big armed man jumped out from a doorway... Grabbed my arm and tried to inject me... I assumed perhaps to get control of me I guessed... In my dream.. My nightmare...
Arrrghhhh
I then chose to wake up!
In waking up I thought why did I not headbutt him.. Ouch.. My brain is my most powerful tool... Ummm why did I not kick him fuking hard in the balls....!?

To distract myself from returning to the nightmare I picked up my phone to listen to a story.... And jeepers creepers these are the two stories that jumped out at me... The first a discussion linked by my friend IRL. The video chat had an image of two people talking.... I was not keen on the look of them.... I am sceptical by nature... What conspiracy would they share I thought.... Well I also know, now in my own life more than ever... That perspective is valuable... You have to know what the opposite is, to know your own view....

So... OK... I will try hearing what this first pair have to reveal... It happens to be major and highly paid podcast star... I usually run from mass adulation.. Try not to follow the crowd.... I am about carving my own niches.....

Video chat link one (1* link at end) was discussing global culture big money and big power... Who really is running things the topic.... It's not long... Concise summary of the money power trail to Control... I know in my own life how money and control can influence and inspire others.

The most interesting thing was, what do incredibly wealthy people do once they have too much money.... I think that caught my attention.... God complex.

It was interesting... Appeared to have intent of outlining big ideas.. I felt not conspiracy.... But I am always cautious to avoid conspiracy... There was some verifying that appeared believable....

Gosh... OK... Big powerful stuff... It aligned with my general Ballardian themed world views somewhat. What is within our human culture that we tend to avoid viewing or accepting..

Then...
Video link chat two was then chosen for me... OK the algorithm at work... Caution again... Careful Janek.... Bubble vision in action...

I have been having a very proactive thoughtful week about Ai and sound and reading research papers from academic software engineers trying to solve a 'problem' of text input to sound output, who appear to work within Meta etc... What problem?? Just a hypothetical academic problem... But I felt not a problem that needing effort and energy... What benefit, what outcome is all this software endeavor aimed at??? Astonishing tech... But to what aim?

I am trying to take a wide view of the consequences of Ai on culture... My 14yr old child this week challenged me (I felt) by calmly trying to stop my waffling on, saying he is not interested in art and culture.. This really impacted my feelings.... But I know my feelings are my issue... No one can make you feel a certain way. Maybe lovely child was pushing back on parent... Maybe of course his understanding of what 'culture' could mean is vastly different to my own opinion of what culture could refer to... Maybe he wanted to go chill in that moment rather than listen to dad waffling on... :-? I must take on perspective, not of just my own feelings wishes opinions ambitions etc... Even if I feel they are well intentioned and nourishing. I learned something from that interaction. Which is good! In fact it became part of this essay pondering.

Earlier in the week at a family and friends holiday meal gathering I was asked what I would do to solve the politics problem I was suggesting had been difficult in UK culture over last 13yrs... As it had been unlucky for some... I responded by saying I cannot fix it alone... but would seek to join with others that know more than me with the combined intention of working towards solutions that support the majority not the mini minority.... broadly speaking. I shared that in my own life I can only do what I can do.... So I answered that in last 13yrs since creating my largest exhibition work, where I curated content, collected from a wide variety of others, to consider what we as a culture are doing to ourselves.. I felt we are 'Asleep at the Wheel' (3*) careering down the highway of life with our foot to the floor thinking this amazing journey we are on together just goes on forever... In an ecosystem of finite resources... It is in fact our environment that supports our economy... Without environment there is no economy, (= no profit!). My own father was on this mission back in the 70's 80's.. As an ecological physics scientist researching anti pesticides natural alternatives learning from nature and educating governments. I suspect he died in process of doing that from radar radiation consequences age just 56... Three years from my current age.. In 2010 when producing Asleep at the wheel, I learned only then of Ghandi quote.. 'Be the change you want to see in the world'.... Wow... My intention is in general, goodwill to ourselves.... I thus aimed to change my way of life... And stopped actively seeking to fly all over world for my work opportunity... and instead started local businesses that help, educate, and entertain my more local community... In so doing providing my income locally. Then after Corona I saw the world returning to ultra fast living as 'back to normal' seemingly ignoring how mother earth benefited from our global pause indoors. So I have now choosen to stop flying, see how it goes. Communicate this to others.. Which people defo question why... They find it a bit radical or curious...So I tell them story above in hope it may give them food for thought.... I tell them how rewarding I find my work and how others find joy and satisfaction in that process... And how doing my various career roles does not involve a computer as primary tool....so Ai cannot replace my role in life .... I do tangible craft and tangible interaction with humans for work... I am not competing with the ultraness of Ai coming on stream fuking fast into our connected pocket super computer driven culture.. I also like cash... You can touch it.. It is tangible... 'Computer says no' to your online bank access - is not possible.. (Yes all money has its issues, and it's at the root of this all pondering) We are I feel rather vulnerable in wifi digital era to a glitch or a software controlled switch... Incredible but more vulnerable than ever, dazzled by the magic era we are living in. The queues outside troubled banks were last era.. This one is digital queuing in hyperspace.

The next video that was chosen by algorithm for me to watch was indeed right right on track in blowing my mind... (2*) As these two people appear good intentioned highly skilled and deeply discuss a huge wide view of the Ai revolution.. And it is fascinating, as it discusses creativity originality intellect and story telling at root source. . Yep... As I write you will see I love story telling...it does indeed illustrate though that we need to take a wide perspective and knowledge of other people other Intel other views etc in order to examine and consider what is going on and how we step forwards...

Wow I learned a lot from their inside knowledge.. It's fast it's deep.... But so are the Ai engines of change.. That we are creating... We are doing this to ourselves... As illustrated in my piece...'Imagine a World' (4*).... we are in a cocktail glass of sweetness... Feeding as fast as we can on the finite contents like mould, polluting our environment feeding on resources as fast as we can, and without an ecosystem there is no economy. I ask.. "Will it work out for the best in the end?"

We are intelligent... So.. It's up to all of us.

Observe and Evaluate
And make a Request..
That is what I learned in training in NVC.
With Kindness as the purpose...
To others
And to ourselves...

The above is a summary of my life thinking over the last 13yrs, since turning 40... Perhaps bit deeper thinking than a mid life crisis...Seemily in part summed up and illustrated by tonight's nightmare in my head... Bad people trying to control..... Been going on for centuries of course... Is this era evolution any different.... I feel yes it is.. Fast and furious.... Not a film franchise but our actual future right here right now.... Well percolated story telling about my life experience considering our life together on earth.

A Friend this week is included in a collection of essay's exploring the theme of 'Care' represented by the goddess Cura... Who notionally picked up mud on banks of river and innately shaped a human form,, was that the first artwork it indicated..? It was an interesting theme... Care....

Why did that pop up in my life in front of me this week pondering and waffling on about all this stuff above..??? Well,,, care in indeed a huge word...

Do we need to take care?
Are we being careless?
Should we be prioritising Due Care?
Did anyone care about the top folks signing a joint letter to pause Ai research to stop and consider the consequences? At least main stream media reported it... We paused for about 7 seconds and carried on,,, without a care in the world!!
I felt that was incredible moment...

Yes Care is a fundamental totem indeedy!

In video two the interviewee is I think the only ceo of an Ai company to sign it.. Chap from UK... And this gave validity to his interview... It's flipping nice long video... Which I have not yet watched all of... As I ingested plenty from it to inspire this essay which I have been writing at dawn in bed for three hours.. Yes on my pocket super computer phone. . Later in video they go onto try and focus on finding more positive outcomes of Ai I believe....

 

Janek Schaefer.
Thinker/Doer/Concerned parent.
If I die today I am content and grateful for my personally great good fortune luck and life I have carved out as a collection of carbon atoms within the galaxy... My concern and caution is naturally focused on what future my offspring may encounter. What are the motivations for this new era of Ai revolution... Is it personal wealth for those running big business? What exactly is the 'problem' that the creators are trying to solve?

What I learned and heard in processing my own life traumas in recent years, is that we were not put on this earth to make money. Rather preferable I propose .. is that Joy in others, brings us joy within. That is most fulfilling and rewarding as a lived experience...

I am on a family summer holiday again...
Last year we journied to experience amazing economic era epicentre of entertainment excess at Disneyworld Paris.. Yes I enjoyed it... But I also think oodles, so I returned from holiday writing another epic essay titled "Fairytale Ending?" My image below seems to still relate. In fact I updated it with a capital A to infer links to my new awareness of Ai....

Truth, authenticity, endeavour, verify, bias, benefit, value, ... and other fundamentals are also prime nuggets in the magic mix of our life together on earth... Am I old in wanting humanness in the things I experience... As I feel they add value to my investment in enjoying them? These seem to relate to my training in how we relate and communicate with each other... Our feelings and needs I learned about in fab fabulous NVC as I link concisely on my being-kind Web page (5*)...Face to face or behind keyboards and screens... We have trouble any joy in the smallest and most powerful human relationships in our day to day lives....

Right.. Time to take a family walk on Normandy wild windy beach to climb the dunes, visit neadertal site and watch the endless cycle of waves crashing on our shores... Excuse any typos... Kind of indicates I am not using Ai to draft my concepts. Could Ai mimic this essay by me.. Not sure.... Can it be used to better our world... Maybe... If everyone wants it to... Sitting back and not questioning it is not something I do on holiday....!

My life experience in artistic actions is that limitation breeds creativity... Offering the entire world of knowledge in your hand often stifles people... Yes incredible resource but too much can be an issue.. As mentioned in interviews... The billionaire's are mostly sooo sad they observe...

Love and kindness to all. X

1* https://youtu.be/Mvh4o6x3-GQ

2* https://youtu.be/Se91Pn3xxSs
And also this shorter conversation was good I found.. So far. https://youtu.be/1WOjjgyZPj8

3* Asleep at the wheel https://www.audioh.com/projects/asleepatthewheel.html

4* Imagine our world https://janekschaefer.com/=Imagine_Our_World.html

5* https://being-kind.com/